A Loss for Words

I struggled with creating a post this morning. I guess being away for so long had a greater affect on me than I first realized. I couldn't think of anything yesterday and it was hard for me today. I thought, I could post about this nasty weather blowing through town today. Wind gusts of 50-60 mph. But then everyone has weather issues. I thought I could talk about my oldest son who complains every morning about having to get up for school and has repeatedly asked that we start homeschooling. I had no real purpose or plan about what to post. And in searching for my purpose I turned to God.

Now, I didn't ask God to send me an idea for a topic. What I mean is that I was feeling lost and uncertain about what to do, how to speak, where to go with all of this. And normally when I'm feeling uncertain about anything in life, from the smallest problems to the seemingly insurmountable ones, it means that I have turned my attention away from God and it's time to make a U-turn. It's time to turn my attention back to the One who is always present in my life and ask Him to guide my path.

Psalms 143:7-10

7 Answer me quickly, O Lord; my spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit. 8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. 9 Rescue me from my enemies, O Lord, for I hide myself in you. 10 Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground.

How easy it is to stray. To get caught up in our own sorrows and problems. To feel as if there is no one to turn to, no one willing to help. Drawing a blank when it comes to blogging is in no way equatable to the afflictions others may be facing this morning. But all things, great and small, can affect our lives. And I realized that if I was struggling to come up with a topic, then surely there were others out there with problems greater than mine. I knew that if I couldn't come up with something to say, a regular chatter-box, then something was holding me back. That something was that I was not focusing on giving glory to God. And for my own self, when I turn my back on God so-to-speak, when I don't focus on fulfilling His plan for my life, I become lost. The focus in this house hasn't become anti-christian, mind you. But it definitely hasn't been completely on doing the will of Christ. So maybe that was His intention all along. Maybe I was called to remind not only myself that when all else fails - turn to God. I was struggling with what to say and God turned that opportunity into a way to glorify Him. I'm reminded to look at the animals: DOG - depend on God, FROG - forever rely on God.

So my post today seemingly wrote itself. No longer was I struggling to come up with an idea. The idea was there all along. I had just lost focus...