Sunday, June 29, 2008

Realizations on a Rainy Sunday

There are a few things I have come to realize over the past few days, years, hours. And in no particular order he we go:

* I love listening to thunderstorms but I hate the rain.
* Kenny holds my hand so often that when he's not around to do so, I don't know what to do with them.
* I miss my Nunnie more than words can express.
* I have lazy cats.
* My father is the cutest guy I know (no offense, Kenny.)
* I spend way too much time 'googling' things.
* The world was not made for short people.
* Ice cream should have it's own food group.
* I don't know everything.
* My mom is usually right.
* I could never have a modern-styled home.
* I love nuts and raisins but not in anything.
* I have useless information stuck in my head.
* There is nothing greater than the love of family.
* I should have lived in the 50s.
* Laughing is good for the soul.
* I need to read more.
* I definitely need more patience.
* When people tell me I'm nuts, they're probably right.
* My God is an awesome God.

Come to any realizations lately??

Friday, June 27, 2008

No, I didn't fall off the face of the earth!

They say the pathway to hell is paved with good intentions. I had every intention to start blogging again. Then 'this' happened one morning. And then 'that' happened one evening.

But anyway...I'm slowly getting accustomed to our new arrangements around here. Kenny started a new position at work which should ease our financial burdens. But it's a steady night turn position. I HATE night turn. It wouldn't be that bad if he worked the "4, 10's" (like the job is scheduled) but he works 11 hours every day and it's never just four days. Last week he work 6 days straight. And this week he went out on Sunday night and will work through next Thursday morning. Yep! That's 12 days straight. I could deal with it if he had the weekends off. But that rarely happens.

I seriously went through the five stages of grief. I told him that money doesn't mean that much to me. We're doing ok. He felt otherwise. I said I didn't get married to sleep alone, damn it - he said it won't always be like this. I said I would try to get more hours at work. He said he doesn't want me to have to work at all. I cried for days (and in front of him.) He would hug me and tell things are going to be better. Finally, when none of that worked - I just accepted it. In order for him to "make a name for himself" out there, he had to take this job. And as much as I hate to admit it, everyone on the maintenance crew (the highest paying job in the yard) was on night turn at one time or another. So, I have to do what my mother says: Suck it up, be a supportive wife and stop making him feel guilty for trying to better our situation. But there is a bright side to all of this. When he still worked at Veka he would be on daylight for two weeks and night turn for two weeks. And I hated it! I never saw him. By the time he got home in the morning I had already left for work. He would get up just in time to eat dinner and then leave again. But now, I can see him in the morning for a few hours. And he gets up about 2 hours before leaving at night. So I can see him then too. It still sucks. But at least it's better than before. And the extra money means we can go to my sister's in August!!!!!

Now on to more fun updates. The boys are in Ohio this weekend preparing to walk their mom down the aisle! Since my cousin is getting married here in PA on the same day, I can't be there. But it's being videotaped and I can watch that. I'm so proud of them. I'm proud of Kerry. And I couldn't be happier for her and Greg. The boys get along fantastically with Greg and with his kids. Things are looking up everywhere!!

And knowing that all good things come from Above - I praise the Lord and His infinite wisdom in knowing what's best for us and our family. And I marvel at His timing. Clearly, His plan is far better than mine.

My plans for tonight - visiting everyone and staying for a cuppa! Much love to each and everyone of you!